Kyle-

Every time I think of you my heart skips a beat, I can't breathe and my eyes well with tears. If that's not love then could you tell me what love is? I can't believe you left me here all alone in this cruel world. You told me you would be back in the morning, you promised you wouldn't go...you lied. I don't know why you wanted to go or why you decided to leave me here, but I know you love me and I trust your judgment. I mean it's true I've been crying since the day you left, and yes I have been wearing your fox shirt around everywhere. This shirt is all I have left now. I have some memories. I have almost four years worth. I just don't think that is enough to get me by. It's okay for now, but in due time...it will all be forgotten. If only everyone knew just how much I love you and how much I have since the first time we spoke, then maybe, just maybe, they would understand. However, no one listens to me, and here I am alone, with no home..I'm so lost. I'm just wandering the earth pointlessly. My day is but a routine now and it is the most horrible pain I've ever had to endure. I feel like nothing but a lost soul. I was complete when I was with you, whole....do you understand that? Now they tell me you're gone, and they don't know when you'll return. A week, two, fourteen, a year? I don't know if I'll ever see you again. Another lonely Valentine's Day, I'll be so alone. I'm still waiting, just like I said I would. I love you that much. Everyone says this will make us stronger. I think they're lying. Nothing could make me stronger than looking into your brown eyes and feeling like you can see inside me. That makes me know you love me, that's just how I get through the day. *sigh* well it was. Now I'm struggling to sleep at night, since you are no longer by my side. I fear the things people tell me. I know you'll be leaving again when you get back. I hope that you decide to marry me so we can be together anywhere you go. It may seem crazy, but no one knows you like I do. I know how we are together...and we're perfect. You remember you said it was us against the world babe? Now you've left me here weaponless, susceptable to any open wound. I wish you would hurry. Please hurry. I'm so utterly and completely in love with you that I'm losing grip on reality here. Did I tell you today I prayed for you? I wished you would hurry up and come home. I know you can't and won't be back any time soon...and that breaks my heart all over again. I would ask you to promise you were coming home, but I don't know that I could believe you. I'm sorry, and I love you. My heart is broken and still breaking more each and every day. If you don't hurry, I'll die here without you. Please don't let me die alone..I need you and I love you...Honey-please hurry! I LOVE YOU!!!